its been such a long time i blogged in here but i think its time for me to start again..i usually take a lot of "blogging" breaks but i really want to be more up to date with it..i was telling one of my friends, nisha, about why I am blogging...i couldnt really come up with one solid reason...i think i said something like "i will show how my life was when i was a college student to my grandkids"...it makes me sound so old now thinking about it now...

today my day was rather mundane..a typical day actually..nothign out of the ordinary..my diff eq prof seems to be very interesting but the material is really abstract.....so many things have happened over the past month...it seems like a long time actually...so many things have changed..it doesnt seem like it..but its made me feel better..and i am not usually depressed when i think about some things i think about usually which puts my mood off...sometimes it takes someone to tell you waht you have before you realize it and thats pretty much waht happened in a way...i was kind of feeling upset, annoyed, and even frustrated at a lot of different things that had and were happening to me last year..and even summer...however, after talking to people who i could finally trust and say that they were my good friends ..i feel so much more relieved now...its nice to have people you can talk to and share your feelings...and get advice even if its not what you think you would normally do...

last year was interesting but i never really felt like i fit in yet to college..i just knew a lot of people..but i didnt exactly fit it and couldnt call this place my "new home" for the next 3 or 4 years...i think after summer, things changed a lot...i started liking the people i was talking to and got to know them a lot better as the semester progressed...it was nice to have someone there to call you about something or ask how you are doing or just the general considersate stuff that you entrust in a friend..finally a few people who i could really call my friends...i hate the general stereotype that people make "oh, you know a lot of peopoe..so you are very popular and must have a lot of friends...!"...ironically, there were very very few people i could really even call a friend in my freshman year let alone my good friend...perhaps its just my personality or my views on certain things....but i am glad now that things are becoming different...or maybe nothing is just becoming different...maybe its just something that you develop after a certain time...it feels good and i hope it stays that way....i have a lot to write about but i will continue them later...now i am excited about leaving for lunch with two of my friends ..a nice restaurant :-)