Today...i think i will just talk about random things that come into my mind....firstly online procrastination...as much as it seems like a big waste of time...it actually helps me relax sometimes just to take a break and talk to a few people i know and like ...i think i mentioned this somewhere before but i will mention it again..the number of buddies on my list has significantly decreased now because i am just keeping people i want to talk to as opposed to random people i know...one of my friends told me this and i really thought it was a valid point...what is the point knowing a zillion people but only talking to a few...its like when people say "you are very popular and know everyone and have soo many friends"...so i guess to really prove that i am not..and kind of just listening to ideas from people..i just have kept the people worth talking to....

ok..the next is the vocabulary i have been using...i am sure a lot of people who i talk to on a day-to-day basis will be wondering why i use terms like 'hideous' or 'barbaric' or 'tribal' .....and ofcourse 'flush' but for some reason they have just become part of my daily conversations....i guess since they are sometimes bizzare to use i just started saying them and then it stuck on...anyway i hope people dont think i am really dumb because of the words i use..and i guess i could sound more professional and use more mature words but i just like using childish things because sometimes its just nice to be plain childish :-)

today at lunch i was very quiet ..and sometimes i can be realyl quiet when i dont feel like talking or cracking jokes or even laughing at other people's comments....sometimes when i dont feel like saying anythign i will just be quiet and i am sure people will get irritated by it..but i dont know what else to do...sometimes its that or i am just really tired..today i guess it was kind of both..i was not in a very social mood..tahts why sometimes coming online is nice to express your views and its almost like you are talking to another person....explaining yoru day ...your problems ...your feelings...at first i was kind of uncomfortable about blogging and writing my personal life history online but i dont really mind it now..most of the people who read this either know me well and i trust them to read it or else i wouldnt have even mentioned this blog...so i think i will be ok...

another thing that i want to mention about something that happened last week...its really stupid and rather childish..but i will mention it anyway without using names....i had a kind of argument with one of my good friends (person A)..and this person was also kind of mad at me....i dont know how it exactly started but it ended up being pointless and we didnt talk for a while...and we both kind of felt bad..so we trusted one of our other friends and that person (person B)...made us a lot better and actually we both felt foolish afterwards....i guess thats what happens in a good friendship....you learn a lot as you grow...

i am switching topics like anything but its just interesting....this weekend i went home and it was really nice...i didnt do a great deal but i still had a good time...last week we went out to celebrate one of my friends' birthday at Mirch Masala - a restaurant that i have visited so many times these past 2 semesters!!!!!!! Me, Ranit, Gaurav, Somas, Nisha, Rao and Chirag went there and then watched Shakti ...and it was very nice....i think i had a very good time and for the first time i could actualyl say i had a fun evening!!! Especially last year...i didnt really know people so it was boring..and just hi/bye relationship with most people...which can also be a good thing....but having good friends is much more rewarding and you seldom feel the lonliness and depression that you can easily on a college campus (especially being away from home)...

ok..now back to going home...i never use to feel bored when i went home last year but this year it doesnt feel the same...i do love going home to meet my parents and my brother and just being there with them..but i sometimes feel unproductive and kind of like disrupting the whole scene there...sometimes i get into a pointless argument with my dad...or just sit and watch movies...and feel like i am being a nag...maybe i should do more things at home like i used to and not be so lazy.....sometimes i feel what i am doing is right when i do it..but when i look back at it a little while later...i feel like i should have handled the situation better...

ok i have touched on so many topics and i feel better ...now i dont have anything else exciting to blog about...i guess i could actually just talk about some general issues about things i believe in.... ok here goes again....well one of my friends makes fun of me sometimes by matching me up with this one friend (you know who this is if you are reading :-) ) and as much as its funny....sometimes i dont know what to say when i see that girl...like even though we are good friends ...i hope she doesnt get bothered or anything...and its funny..when i came to tech....i had such a conservative idea about a lot of things..and the whole thing with arranged marriages and the boy/girlfriend issue....i was really surprised to see so many indian people i sort of knew who had girlfriends in india and were chatting to them....at first i opened my eys and was literally amazed at the way india had changed...or perhaps i was not fast enough to keep up with it....i mentioned this to anu the other day and she told me that india is totally different now..and people are not like they were 12 years back..i lived in india till 2nd grade so i guess the idea molded into my headed is pretty much what i think it was and how i perceive it when i go back and basically through word of mouth....and as the semesters went by...i kind of grew to accept it...and now i guess its not that bad....but i dont think i will get myself in that situation...many people will probably view that as old fashioned or foolish..but i guess for one...i know my parents wouldnt like it..and they are rather conservative (typical Tamil brahmin parents)..actually my dad is very conservative and my mum leans more towards the liberal side....and i guess i still cant see myself in that relationship....however, according to my horoscope i wont have an arranged marriage...it will be a love marriage to a Tamil Brahmin girl...so that is nice..but only the future holds the truth!!